Misc. update

I have done a terrible job lately with keeping my blog updated. It worries me because it is so important to me to document the stories and special moments I have with these kids. They are growing up so fast. You hear it said all the time, but experiencing it causes you to feel the heartache of another day gone. The boys recently got haircuts, much-needed haircuts, and it caused them to look so much older, escpecially Gabe. Isaiah has always been a very mature boy. On a daily basis, he says and does things that show how sharp he is. Up to this point, Gabe has still really felt like my baby. As I watched each clump of hair fall to the ground, and how well he behaved for the hairstylist, I realized that he is really a little boy now. Quite independent, with a personality that melts you. Having this baby feels a little bitter sweet. I remember feeling like this weeks before Gabe was born. I was a little sad to give up the relationship that Isaiah and I had, not realizing how much the love of another adds to the equation. I guess I just don't want to miss any more than I already do now. I never realized that my heart could fall in love this many times and all at once. The weather has caused cabin fever, producing some pretty frustrating behavior, but I must say that since we've been able to get out these past few days, I have seen a side of my boys that makes me so proud. They love each other and Justin and me, even though I have no idea what I'm doing in this whole parenting thing. I make mistakes on a daily (hourly) basis when it comes to discipline and stuff like that. I'm reading the parenting books but I can never get it quite right. But kids are so forgiving. The very next morning they'll be right there climbing into bed with us and wanting the comfort of our "snuggle". I can't put into words how much that means to me. This whole parenting experience is quite a ride (I love the bumper sticker that reads "discover wildlife - have children") but there is nothing else in the world that could give me the joy, purpose, and heart felt satisfaction that motherhood brings. Here are a few random pictures. My kids are just the cutest and I can't help but brag sometimes. Enjoy.